This is how I felt before the weekend …

I was looking forward to seeing Nicole, yet, she managed to disappoint all my expectations and hopes by picking up some guy two feet away from me while we were on a single party. Yes, I know how stupid it was to go on a single party with her and her friends … I did not expect them to be on a manhunt, though …

Long story short: she knew my feelings and ignored them – completely! Not the kind of people I like to stick around with …

Listening to Music to distract myself I found these lyrics to be quite true and a nice summary of my feelings in the last weeks …

Underneath The Surface by Prime Sth

Every cut leaves a painful scar
Every wish needs a shooting star
Bruises fade but underneath the surface…

It all remains
Just the same
It will stick around
For as long as you keep it alive
And all the hate
Will finally break you down
It wont heal if you keep it inside

Every lie leaves an open sore
Every deceit gives you hope once more
Bruises fade but underneath the surface

It all remains
Just the same
It will stick around
For as long as you keep it alive
And all the hate
Will finally break you down
It wont heal if you keep it inside

Begging you for more

It will never leave me alone
Always coming back , coming back for more
Why wont you love me?

It all remains
Just the same
It will stick around
For as long as you keep it alive
And all the hate
Will finally break you down
It wont heal if you keep it inside

It will never leave me alone
why wont you love me?

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About Jörn Dreyer

learned in a bank, studied business informatics, took the red pill and went down the rabbit hole of software engineering, working on my Ph.D.